“The God I so eagerly sought was not there and the understanding I thought to gain was not there... I wanted to tell her I was searching for something, but sometimes I didn't even know what it was I sought.” (Anaya. Bless Me Ultima. 235)
Searching. Every day of life we are all constantly searching
for something. It can be searching for someone, for something, or for someday. This message is found in poems,
books, movies, or songs. As I thought about this the lyrics to a popular song
came into mind.
“Save me, I'm lost
Oh, Lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for, oh, Lord”.
("Show me what I'm looking for by Carolina Liar)
This song perfectly goes hand in hand with the struggle
Antonio is presented with at the end of the novel. After Ultima has finally
taught him to look at the world through a questioning eye, he begins to search.
We read how he struggles with not immediately finding his answers. This may
lead the reader to wonder,
“Is Tony’s new found view of questioning and wondering a
good thing?”
I would argue that it is a great thing. This is because it
teaches us to appreciate life and opens new horizons. It can also make our convictions
stronger. This can be fundamental to a happy life when it comes to crucial
questions like our religious convictions. As stated in the first quote, Tony
looked for God because of Ultima teaching him to question. He didn’t necessarily
always find him but at least he searched. That search helped Tony, at least part
of the time, find answers. Another young boy like Tony who searched was Joseph
Smith.
Smith wondered which religion was
correct, read “If any of ye have doubts, ask and ye shall receive”, searched
through prayer and then found an answer.
Smith would have never found his
answer and thus restored the true church if he hadn’t questioned what the
correct thing was. Like Tony and Smith we all must question to be able to find
our correct answers. So as we go through life every day, searching for answers,
perhaps sometimes we should stop and recognize what a gift it is to have
questions, doubts, and wonders.
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